The past few weeks work has been overwhelmingly busy. I thank God for the good folks that work for me and those in our office who are like brothers and sisters to me. They encourage me support me and “have my back” when I am struggling. Nevertheless, sometimes the 4 ½ hour commute is exhausting. I finished my 4th round of chemo this week. It was back to the max dose so that likely contributed to my fatigue.
Thursday morning as I was driving to the Park-n-Ride at a little after 5 I felt nauseous, I was so worn out. I was weary, not just tired. As I drove, I prayed out loud for God to give me the strength that I didn’t have within myself. I called to mind scripture of His promises to give us strength if we would lean on Him. I backed the truck into the parking spot, bracing myself for the cold wait for the bus. I decided to sit in the warmth of the truck and wait for the bus a little longer. I read a devotional from an app called Jesus Calling. It is a short daily inspiration.
Seconds after I finished praying for strength for my weary body and mind, I read this: I am your strength and shield. I plan out each day and have it ready for you, long before you arise from bed. I also provide the strength you need each step of the way. Instead of assessing your energy level and wondering about what’s on the road ahead, concentrate on staying in touch with Me. My Power flows freely into you through our open communication. Refuse to waste energy worrying, and you will have strength to spare. Whenever you start to feel afraid, remember that I am your Shield.
It was an immediate and loud message to me that I needed to hear. I took the next day off and slept, rested, read and ended the day feeling much better.
I am also inspired by my “brothers and sisters in arms” fighting a similar battle as myself. We have formed a tight network that encourages, confides, and prays for each other. I know there are more anxious moments in our future but for now, rest and seek strength that I don’t have within myself from One who is able to provide it.