Several weeks ago my grandfather (Lemuel Stevens or “Papaw” as we all called him) passed away in Mobile, Alabama at the age of 97.
It was hard not to be there to celebrate his life. But, I had the great opportunity to spend a lot of fun times with him when we were both healthy.
From a small boy’s perspective, he was the strongest man I knew. From where I stand now at 55 years old, my opinion of him has never changed. Dad ran a close second.
He worked hard, not to accumulate wealth, but to provide for the family. He’d get up at 4;30 or 5 in the morning I believe, rattle a few pots and pans that woke all us kids sleeping on the living room floor. He would then go to work at Laurel Machine and Foundry in Laurel, Mississippi and get home right at supper time.
The steel foundry was hard work. No paid vacation, no insurance package, no 401k. All the benefits we expect in an employer today. As a little boy, it was awesome to go see him at work. Watch molten steel being poured into forms, watch the lathe pare down raw pieces of steel into something usable for a specific purpose and to watch him use a “hammer” as big as a small car to bend steel bars into the desired shape.
I remember once asking him if anyone ever got hurt using this massive hydraulic hammer and he smiled and said yes. In his musical Mississippi accent he said that one time some feller got his hand too close and it got his finger which snapped off and shot across the room. 45 years later I still don’t know if it was true or just a grandpa messing with his grandson. At any rate, it gave me that much more respect that he had done this job all those years and still possessed all of his digits.
Some of my favorite Papaw memories were waking up on Sunday morning with the “Gospel Jubilee music hour on their old TV playing as we all got dressed for church. We would go to tiny Pineview Congregational Methodist Church where 75% of the small congregation either bore that last name of Stevens or at one time did until they got married.
During the summer we’d travel from Texas to Mississippi. He and Dad would make ice cream in an old hand-crank ice cream maker. At night they would disappear. One night I asked Mamaw (my grandmother) where they were. “Oh they’re sitting outside.” I went out and found them staring at the sky. When I asked them what they were doing, Papaw said “looking for UFOs”. That sounded like an invitation to a young boy to grab another lawn chair and help out.
My first year of grad school at Southern Mississippi University I got to live right next to Papaw and Mamaw’s trailer. We ate dinner together nearly every single night. We would watch Tom Brokaw on the NBC Evening News and Wheel of Fortune then eat. It doesn’t sound like much, but I loved that routine.
I came to appreciate Papaw and Mamaw’s relationship. As a little kid I never noticed how funny they were.
I’ll never forget, one-night Mamaw made one of her amazing sweet potato pies that Papaw and I loved. We both agreed that we could eat a whole pie in one sitting. She put the pie on the table right in front of Papaw. Then she placed a large plateful of the worst bean know to mankind, the poorly named butter bean. The only way she’d let him touch the pie was to eat all his beans first. It was like an old west stand-off. Needless to say, it was a long time before either of us got a taste of that pie. Mamaw didn’t laugh out loud but it was clear she was loving every moment.
There was a playfulness to their marriage that I began to notice and admire. It taught me to never lose sight of the fun in your spouse and your marriage that was likely part of the first attraction.
He also taught me the value of service and neighborliness.
He served his country, he served his church, he helped friends and neighbors and he served his God. When a neighbor needed help, Papaw would help. As Mamaw once said of him “He’s never met a stranger.”
Last year when I was ill, a friend at work sent me a verse from the Old Testament. King Hezekiah was at the point of death and the prophet Isaiah visited him to give him a word from God.
2 Kings 20:5 says “This is what the Lord, the God of your father David says: I have heard your prayer and seen your tears; I will heal you.”
One night while reading this verse, I found myself saying, “This is what the Lord, the God of your father Robert, and his father Lemuel, and his father Robert says…”
What a legacy to step into.
I miss Papaw but it is a comfort to know that one day we’ll sit in heaven with a sweet potato pie between us that we can enjoy without the evil butterbeans to go through first.
The past month has been a challenge in addition to the loss of my grandfather. On June 5th I left for my longest work travel since my first surgery. One of our ships had a planned itinerary from NW Alaska starting in Seward bound to a famous peninsula in Eastern Russia called Kamchatka. The trips were long, sold out and there was a lot of planning that went into them by many people. Consequently, cancelling or delaying these trips was millions of dollars in loss.
One of the steps is to have an intense inspection of the ship by the U.S. Coast Guard because the ship is registered with a foreign country rather than the U.S.
The inspection was scheduled to take place over 2 full days in Hilo, Hawaii. I worked 9-10 hours those days, which is not unusual for me on similar occasions. My flight between Seattle and Hilo was 12-13 hours each way. I flew to Hilo on June 5 and flew back on June 8. June 6 and 7th were the long days with the Coast Guard.
I was exhausted when I got in the driveway at about midnight on the 8th. I’ve been really tired before from long hard days of physical labor, but this felt different. It was fatigue, something way more pervasive than just being tired.
This lasted for 6 weeks and took a long time to feel like I was all the way back. I returned from my work trip about 6 weeks after surgery. A few days after I got home, I had an audit of our Safety Management System for which I have total responsibility.
The organization which conducts the audit issues a certificate without which, 6 of our 8 ships have to cease operation until we are able to correct any deficiencies. It’s highly unlikely that would ever happen, but I give it all due respect.
Both the Coast Guard inspection and the audit went very well so we could all take a deep breath, at least for a little while, but it was a time of intense pressure.
Shortly after all this I had my first MRI and follow up appointments since the first day after surgery. In the follow up with my surgeon Dr. Sanchez, he walked into the room and said “your MRI looks great!” What a relief.
A few days later we saw Dr. Taylor, my oncologist and she said the same thing. It was a good day.
Praise God for His mercy, grace, and love show to our family.
July 23rd was the 1-year anniversary of my first surgery when our life dramatically changed. It didn’t feel like the sort of anniversary to be celebrated. I won’t lie, it has been extremely difficult at times.
Dr. appointments that have left us crying and in shock.
Tests in which we anxiously waited on results with our eyes closed and heads bowed in prayer.
Treatments such as radiation and chemo that were just words we’d heard in the past.
But, Lisha put it best as she does every time. “We made it babe and we did good.”
I’ve learned that it’s easy to let a slice of your day take on a life of its own. A couple of nights ago was one of those times. My chemo pills hit me like never before. It was as awful as you can imagine for both of us. We were both pretty gloomy the next day. I went on a short walk and it occurred to me that the night was just an event and not a setback. I was heading down a path letting that night becoming something bigger. It was just a slice of a day. For many taking chemo this is a regular occurrence. We continue to rely on the comfort and peace that passes all understanding as God provides for us.